ghostlyarmageddon:

You feel a bit sick with the blood flies at and clots over your mouth. You claw at it but cant give it up. 

You are doing your very best to ignore CKK…and Spider…right now.So you turning around and walk off, heading towards the labyrinth

You smile softly and, suddenly the walls of the cave begin to shake. Everything slowly begins to dissolve. You use your powers to open up a portal to Spider’s hive before walking over to your other self. You touch his arm and smile. 

“thank you. now go hive.” 

Then you fade into his skin with a smile.

ghostlyarmageddon:

“ii dont care what you thiink. and ii dont care what he thiink2” you send a scathing look at CKK “or hiim” another one at Spiders back 

“there ii2 only one troll who ii care what thiink2 and iif he wa2 here he would kiick both your a22e2.”

You give John an withering glare and wave a hand. A glob of blood flies at his face and freezes over his mouth. 

“shut UP john. This moment isnt ABOUT you! its about me. its about me! its a-about me finally getting to go hive.” You tell him.

ghostlyarmageddon:

“iit2 hii2 fault. he..all hii2 fault”

you curl up into a small ball, ignoring everything now. You just want to go home. 

You scoff and roll your eyes. You’re so tired of John’s attitude. So tired. You love him but that doesn’t mean you have to put up with his shit. Especially since you’ll be gone soon.

“john, get over yourself. youre not the only one who feels pain in the world and yet you act like you are. youre not the only one whos suffered and feels guilt and regret and is SCARED. so stop and shut up for two seconds and think about someone other than yourself for a second. im tired of hearing you mope.” You growl. Then you turn to other you with a huge smile and skip over to him.

“You came! You really came!” You cry.

ghostlyarmageddon:

“fuck you. fuck 2piider. fuck everyone.” you say, still sobbing

“okay. whatever you want. spider does still love you john. its not his fault. i messed him up. i trained him like an animal through a system of punishments and rewards. its not his fault. the only thing that you could fault him for is being mentally weak and not taking his medication.” you tell him with a smile. Nothing can bother you at this point. You are totally at peace.

“i’ll be right back.”

Then you walk away and crouch on the floor beside a puddle of blood. You shove your hand in and feel around and then pull other you in. 

askthepir8:

daveysworks:

For Sam~

It’s Shadow CKK.

I hope you like it~

((SILENT SCREAMING AND LOVE))

r-really?!

okay

okay john and spider are here with me

ghostlyarmageddon:

He gets off of you and relief floods through you as the blood changes and slinks off of you. You give a muffled sob and sit up, cradling yourself. You glance over at Spider…who turned to look away..he did nothing to try and help…and that itself feels like a knife turning in your stomach. He owuld have let it happen…

….You have no matesprits now. None. You are sickened beyond belief. You just want to go home, go back to your moirail, curl up in his arjms and stay there forever. 

You get a message on your husktop and smile softly to yourself. You turn it off for the first time and you walk over to John.

“its okay. im going to disappear soon. ill be gone. out of your life and you dont have to worry a-about me ever again. and then spider will go with you. you can…be happy. ill be gone.”

ghostlyarmageddon:

“ii wont…cnt 2top loviing you…but ii cant 2tand you. ii lve you but ii dont liike you” you whimper as you feel his lips and his hands. You try to shrink away but its hard - you are bound fast and cant get free. You dont kiss him back…you try to turn your head but cant

“dont…” you whimper when he moves to kissing your abdomen and chest. You dont want it. You really dont want it.

You pull yourself off him and all solidified blood around him suddenly crashes to the floor and slides away. You can’t do this to John. You physically cannot. You turn your back to him, unable to look him in the face, and you sit in the corner of the cave with your grubtop and stop moving. You don’t say anything, you just curl up and do nothing.